Turning your mind away from familiar old programming (stories you tell yourself, other people’s voices you carry, societal conditions of existence, deep beliefs) and into new pathways can be a challenging process, as challenging as hacking a path through a jungle with a machete. Right now, your thought patterns, for good or ill, are as ingrained as an eight-lane superhighway and shifting something that smoothly traveled, though worthy, might feel super weird at the beginning when it’s all you can do just to catch the negative thought that is chasing itself around your head. It will feel weird but keep going.
Computer, overloaded
Freezing, slow
Shutting down conversations
In the middle of thought
Digital reflection
Of life, overloaded
RAM running hard and hot
Hard drive crashing
Binary existence unsuited
To multifaceted human experience
Yet mirrors on mirrors
No rest, no time, some no, not enough
Run, run programs
Restart, restart, heart
Beat faster, slow attack
Stuck, skipping record groove
Familiar familiars
Face facts
How sufficient, settling
For same is sane?
Others, self, change one, change all
Coding, encoded
Seeing hourglass, wheel, circle, turn turn
Reprogramming in progress…I think?